Yeah its 2012

*pops champagne n party poppers!* uhhhh nuhhhh..
Not the most airy fairy 2012 post ull read this January!

But this “with a new year comes a new me” slogan needs to stop being sold to the masses, like cake soap is being sold to those who think turning ur skin white is right. No, be true to who u r.
Im not here to talk on that…

You can make attempts to change everyday, have a fresh everyday, live on purpose everyday, love like crazy everyday (i mean that in the most respectable way).
When 2012 rang in I knew itd b good cuz near the end of 2011 I started enjoying life n putting myself out there so that life would get better. I didnt wait for a countdown or midnight kiss to mark a new me (*cough, cough*). No- I’m making iddy biddy changes to enhance me for what God wants of me.
I am not a sour puss, im just being real. The facadical hype of a turning of a new year is too much. The only hard thing about it is that it is no longer the year 2011 or December its like the clocks of life have reset to January. Which is where the “new” thing comes in.
Have a fab 2012 year even if the first month is stressful, hard, full of despair. God is still God n He’s still the rock of all ages.
(Im typing fast man!)
Last note. 2012 just be a better you, thats all I ask. My boo told me theyre thankful that I was still me! Im happy im me and am just getting better at it n filling out this wonderful Kirah skin. Lol. Not the other thing what I wanted to say… Here we go. Priorities, get them right. I can not be dealing with indirects anymore, no more He say, she say, NADA! Adios! I have to be important in my life and right before I can care for anyone else or there wellbeing. I start fuming when people think that they must be at the top of everyones Christmas tree because theyre circumstances have changed. (I didnt put up a tree so thats probz y I dont care for others gaining status over me).
I think im done now. Took 12 minutes to write, hope you get it. I cant see much of a huge point. I just felt like a rant and I tried not to go in n write lots. I really did.

But really though, enjoy 2012. Like grab it by its collar n kiss it long n hard like youve never kissed before…. Soz, thinking of a movie scene. Anyway lets keep it unsugar coated but full of love.

God bless you all. I appreciate the reads, comments, repostings, likes, etc. Thank you very much.

2012… Come here baybeh *runs into it to hug like the movies where long time lovers r reunited*.

Lol xx

Great 2011

This year was 2010+1, (which is 2011.)

To say that it was easy?… Well it wasn’t. But my faith in God has grown through the challenges ive had to face.

Ive made great memories and have been blessed with 2 wonderful babies in which I play a part in their lives. (Ultra proud)

Ive had better relationships, put myself out there and have opened my heart more.

Ive had the most joke this year than any other year of life. The best jokes have been with Jesus involved or around a church or church person(s). From Nottz, to the slums to a Monday. Lol. I thank God for his favor, grace and love.

More than anything this year ive learnt that I need to control my emotions and trust in God totally. Uni has taken a lot of my time and I havent been to church as much but trust me, for the Sundays I miss I make up for it with my daily worship. I love God more than ever and its through the trials that ive learnt to pray and let Him fix my problems.

Im grateful for my friends- past, present, future; family; church family; my beautiful babas and love.

To my awesome readers, have a wonderful Christmas (Kwanzaa, and Hanukkah) season and a victorious 2012! Im gunna push for more because I want more. I will produce better so that I can get better. I will serve God more with my heart so all his kingdom riches will be added unto me (Thats Bible!).

My resolutions for 2011 was to write more, dance more and go harder. Im happy to say ive really done that. 2012 I just want it to be about more God in me.

Love you all for reading, commenting, sharing and regularly visiting. I think this is my last post for the year, thank u Mallyboo for inspiring me to start this! To the over 1000 views by ppl this yr im expecting u to save me some chicken, corn bread, velvet cake, gift voucher or suten fi Christmas, me soon deyah!

Love Jesus and remember that a Saviour was born before u slice up that bird cone Sunday 25th. Feliz Navidad

Xx

It all started after the Garden of Eden

This is about a thing that happens to women that men must put up with.

Youre probly not expecting what im about to say so if ur gunna eat dont read this yet. I want to say something that ppl dont talk about so ill write it on my blog.

Oh and men should read just cuz its good to know. Women may agree with what imma say.

Periods.
Periods. Periods. Period. Periods!

Once a month for about a week most women get this (unless there about 50 n experiencing menopause).
Im only 19, but lemme tell you that this is some serious pain some females go through. Its not a walk in the park and for some they cant go to work because of it. Its such a pain in the abdominals that im sure men couldnt go through it.

However they have to deal with what comes with it : ATTITUDE. Im quite a balanced person but Lord knows my emotions can go extreme n a passer by or someone I love can feel the wrath of my pain verbalized instantly. Its not easy to control, so im sorry men that you have to deal with it. Tough cookie, deal with it.

This trouble all started from Eve (men dont u dare start this women r manipulative cuz she ate the apple saga), cuz of what went down God said all the child birth stuff will be painful. Periods are linked to pregnancy/ child birth etc. If its one person id like to currently have words with in heaven it’s Eve, cuz the sista had the good life! Cranked with good food, luscious gardens, great weather, access to God. Like wow, she didnt know what she had till it was gone. I dont wanna judge her but she deffo disrupted my life all these centuries later.

Once again I cant remember the original intentions of this. But ill carry on.

I cant find a scripture for periods. But all I can think of is he angry and sin not. Translated, take the pain and let God handle it. I am in no way saying I will not wanna squeeze an arm just to alleviate pain but Im just laying out a scripture. I remember the last time, I nearly bawled in uni! I left tutorial early n jus gaarn. So I got on the train n put my head down. When I reached new st the guy next to me tapped me to get up n he held up the line of ppl to let me out. That was me taking the pain and letting God make a way. He was nice aswell.

To conclude. Women have periods, men deal with it!

One God, one love, one heart! Xx

Eye want candy

Eye candy (clicking image will take you to original site)

Better packaged as lust..

Im gunna refrain from Biblical remarks in this. Just know that lust needs to be very controlled and not acted on as it does very much tempt you..

Lately I been seeing all kinda wonderful men popping up outta the blue. Like when did Birmingham start breeding these 20 somethin year old men?! Cuz I shudda seen them at least 2 yrs ago so I cudda been getting married in 2 yrs time (after my degree).

Tyrese looking sharp

Well every where I b looking, even though its cold. Men are popping up sharp in suits or just clean cut. Its been great getting a bit of distraction walking down the rd. It really has.

I like me some tall men. Seeing as im 5″7 I have to look upto you (literally) for you to even b in my peripheral vision. Im American at heart so the whole basketball height thing is where im headed hehehe.

I cant remember exactly what I was gunna say in this post as it was originally written and conceived with a great mssg at night. But id like to say, at this current minute. If your a man and you have no ambitions or career prospect plz dont try move to a girl. If you wanna see her drawz n leave then atleast have money if you go in them drawz n leave suten behind, cuz things aint cheap no more! I dont condone girls being with men for money. But my right husband has to have the ability and capacity to create and support me and r future family (2-4 kids and a dog or 2 in a 4 bedroom house). So I set for high standards hence why I only notice men with confidence, (gd looks) n ooze potential. [Im at uni doing my degree, so dont worry im reaching a standard to where I want my husband to be at and higher.]

The other night I was in town with my ‘dad’. And he kinda said my thinking that I need a man with some money n a car (i was half joking, cuz this was what ive wanted till recently)- was wrong n read this thing to me bout Michelle Obama n husband. They were at some Indian restaurant and the owner used to know her and spoke to her in private saying he had a big crush on her in school etc. So she went back to her table n told her hubz (Mr. Prezzi) about it and he said, if u married him you would have owned this restaurant. And she said no, he wudda been president. Now the point my ‘dad’ was getting is that I have to have the right mind and drive that whomever im with, by me being with him I can make him something. (I think that was his mssg).

So I say this to say, Men: act right, look sharp, have morals, aim high and strive for ur dreams. Id b cool knowing my man tries hard to make it even if he stumbled and fell along the way. Ladies: dont b a gold digger. Build yourself up with the right characteristics (love, faithfulness, honesty, truth, trust etc), motives, morals (the important 1- hold out!) and be a respectable lady that ppl can look upto and a great guy would want to marry and have forever.

I aint saying it easy for neither genders. Im just saying try and try hard and keeping looking gooooood guys- I c u! LOL!

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Thanks

Much sun, fun and toned buns! Hahahahaha
Xx

Disclaimer

I take no credit for any photos or video used. Most of these pictures are not mine. Just in case someone try hit me with a law suit or say an image is copyrighted.

I would like to say these pictures (hopefully) aint incriminating nobody, and i have no legal rights to most (90%). So if you copy from my sight etc, you know its on your head. Im just making it very clear, incase i see the po po knocking my door.

I’m being honest and my momma taught me right.

So there we have it. I dont own most of these pics and i didnt intend to break etc any copyright infringement.

I apologize if folk may be upset if i used their pictures and didnt reference or acknowledge them- thank you for your wonderful media and sorry. But contact me if you are, and ill take it down if your argument is good.

Final word. I am covering myself for all pictures/video/audio/ viewing pleasurable media that i have (past, present)) and will (future) post on my blogs .

Thank you,

kiki xx

ANNOUNCEMENT

Reblogged from Malachi's Notepad:

Hello to all the viewers of my blog! I’ve got an announcement to make! I wasn’t sure how to do this. I was going to do it as a video but I didn’t like how I looked in the video.

As you all know I have been writing a lot of things on my blog and it can’t stop there! I would like to take you back to a post a posted a while back.

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so proud of my mallyboo. check out his work and his new platform! :') #proudpost. LOOL. get at him @imallyuk

Im just a girl that likes a guy

I always tell the truth.. More or less.

U c I like this 1 friend, but if I say it to him it’ll make r friendship odd. Usually I be like ‘take it to the Lord in prayer’, but err its a bit more to it.

You see i’ve known him for a few years. He has an edge to him, a slight mystery. He won’t fully open up to me, even as a friend. I’m sure its because he knows that that slight touch more of closeness could bring us to a place where things will b unfamiliar for us both. Not sure if that’s a good or bad thing?
He has a charm, he can be kind and considerate. He has a slightly big heart- but his heart has always been good when geared towards me. He works hard and from early morning, on the grind as he thinks. I just think that lack of sleep does no good to the dark under the eyes. He parties now and again, and as I remember from the parties we both been to, he can dance.
His mom has taught him well, keep the house tidy, don’t let a girl see the mess, help with the shopping + cooking. He loves his mom.
We rarely speak now, partly my fault as I closed myself off to him. I thought I liked him and the more I thought of it, the more I didn’t wanna slip up. So when I realized I liked him, it was late. Late for our friend ship and any other possible boat word.

Lol as I type this from my phone, a few ppl ive liked names have popped up in my predictive text.

This post is more geared towards the females, quite a few of us have felt like this and more intense, and if a guy is reading this he may be intrigued or think im talking of him. But im not, the guy I like.. The guy I wanted to write the post about.. Has changed. He couldnt even recognize that its him im talking about even if I put my feelings on a 4 page letter and seal it with a stamp!
We are now different people and all that can be is a friend ship. Which is what I want. Right now.

Haha, he’s a sweet guy still though. Occasionaly checking on me and sincerely cares of how I feel, he wants to go above and beyond to help me. Well he used to.
I miss his ‘real with me’ nature and constant interest in my life. The sweet character of a man touches me. Thats 1 of those things what make a man stand out and keeps me smiling.

If I go on, itll become a little to obvious of this wonderful God given friend that great parents have made.

So
Im just a girl/lady/woman/female that likes a guy and cant tell him. You feel me?

Xx

Female Add ons

My friend said something on fb what made me think:
“Wearing false eyelashes, contact lenses or hair extensions doesn’t make you fake. What makes you fake is pretending that these things are your real features.”

Now this is my home girl from year 5 and she comes out with wise sayings now n again
But this 1 is true. Ive seen females with all the fakes (plus a fake LV bag to go with it too) n they behave like its themself. The blue eyes, hot pink spider claws, 20″ black or blonde remi or fake brand, sparkly eyelash and cake a 5x lighter then self make up is kinda trampy. [I obviously over exaggerated. But im sure uve seen some1 that fits this.] These extra add ons can be a good thing and a bad thing:

1- Confidence. Believing ur prettier lets u come out of ur shell and take on the world. However, it can make u believe ur stush and untouchable.

2- attention. Some just want some attention or a compliment from a guy (flirt) or girl (female empowerment). However, they can over do it and be seen as a promiscuous female (in laymen terms=slut) by other girls or an easy target by men.

3- I got stuck after 2.

Moving on swiftly. Wearing all this fakeness constantly will make you believe you are this new, ever glamorous person. Maybe deep down u r, but bring it out in ur natural beauty or 1 add on. This beauty queen cosmetic stuff will not cut it for the opposite sex. I hear a lot of guys like au naturale. When your not sometimes they get lost in it they think its the real u. So when its the weave change or contacts come out, they may not like u as much cuz ur not that image of sexy atm.

With this post I aint hating, im just airing. Cuz ive tried all these add ons but never more than 1 at a time. Ive had the brown eyes, modest length nails, eye lash extensions, make up (2x ever), brown straight and curly weave. Ive even used the “Dude, who u think u is. Pssh. This is my hair that I bought from the shop and had attached to my hair. I paid gd money for this and it is now on my head where my hair is. Which makes it.. MINE!” LOL, I always have fun reciting them lines.

To round up now. I got a lil add on *pats weave*, and even I at times feel like a diva and walk like im ANTM and smile with my eyes and ting! Moreso when I have in 14″+, thats when I (and I c it in other ppl) think there King B and run the world! I think its important not to get it in your head that all these add ons are you, because they are not. They are store bought. Unless you have some underlying health condition do not say it is yours.
[You notice how I didnt use much connectives in the last few sentences. Hehe!]

Id like to leave my thoughts on that. Also: Men, dont put females down about wearing a weave (they might b doing it for u) or having nappy head (they cant help it). However if she has on 3 add ons or more n seem like a black barbie, go right ahead. Women, if u c a gd weave or nail pattern [saying a stranger has nice eyelashes or contacts is odd] say its nice- boost a girls confidence! But on the other hand if u see a trashcan weave or degga degga nails and outlandish eyelashes, dont say it. Just smh and tweet it like me n Amber (@itsamberrenae @spontanosityuk) do!

Lol. Right. Christian word: You are beautifully and wonderfully made. Dont let anyone say anything other than that. You were made how u r by the great creator for a reason. And God sees ur hidden beauty.

I think im done now!

Love, au naturale and smile!
*pats weave* xx

Gifts

Buying gifts are hard. Some people are picky, others dont know what they want. Some are just too expensive for ur ‘good friend’ reserve, u may not have a job or u just dont like going and buying gifts.
Usually I buy people a card n put my heart in it. If I love yuh, u get a small gift. If ur related or I cba you may get money or food.
Now for me, ill happily accept a card, it means a lot that u bought a 30p one with the generic message n u write ur name on it. Like im serious I value cards! Home made ones are even better!- lol unless ur under 8 dont do that to me. I know times is tough and we in a quadruple dip recession but bruk the bank for the 30p n buy people a card.
I know males dont buy cards, but listen…. If ur not buying a card at our 19/20+ age u better buy me some oj or pay my meal or car parking (should b driving by next bday!). Or if there 6 a ya, share the price or atleast say ‘aaw ki u know I love u-I was gunna pay it but he is’. Iight cool. This has never happened for me, but id like to c male friends be gentlemen and courteous on my or another friends bday.

Now the point of my post. Even though we having some hot 24c weather in September/October… As Christmas is near I thought id say that Id love more Christmas cards this year. Fb wall posts r nice, but Yh. Ask my address n send it in the post. LOL nah, cuz im not doing that! However if u feel like getting me a Christmas gift, bday gift (June 5th), friendship gift, like me gift, neighbour gift, colleague/class mate gift or any form of gift. Im saying from now that I prefer money instead of clothes vouchers so I can buy food or weave or bus pass or book or paint etc. Thanks qway in advance.

B-)

(short piece of a read, just felt like doing this on my bus journey home!)

Much love, perm n oj!

Btw oj= orange juice! (i dont drink squash. YACK!)

Appreciate <3

9/11 was a few weeks ago. I kind of remembered like the last few days of August and kind of forgot about it, 2 wks after. Its that saying that if u feel it, u gunna learn it. Some of my family lives in New York and when 9/11 happened in 2001 it was a big deal and kind of scary checking on them. But I didnt lose anyone thankfully. I love America and on this 10th year anniversary they did what they always do- unite, respect and grieve with each other. For a country run on madness, they follow that scripture “Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn” (Romans 12:15). They show a lot of love and patriotism to there country. Its 1 of the reasons I love over there so much. Along with -Thanksgiving, is a big thanksgiving with family (the fundamental roots of a person). -Christmas, is love and sharing and thoughts of Jesus. -Hanukkah, is big. -Sunday dinner, is big. -Independance Day. Lets not get started on that. And we cant forget -New years. Boii sah them 2 r huge! *thinks of the food* Americans appreciate there country at times they have to unite. Ive never seen a country quite like that.

[Appreciate is to recognize the full worth and be grateful for something.]

The point of my post isnt to boast on my beloved future home. But just to appreciate love, friendships and family. Lets not wait on death to c the whole fam or a wedding for us to dress up for a festive occasion or a day of gift giving to call the in laws. Appreciate the now. Appreciate life, love, friends and family. Ive really learnt that my family play a big part in my well being and almost sanity. Esp this yr as im starting uni. Theyve paid my fees (a bit over £3k), my equipment, my up n down costs, travel, driving lessons, mot+car. Theyll also be paying for my practical before Christmas and my insurance. A lot of ppl dont have parents that do that. And I truly appreciate them for pushing to get me sorted and for me n my bro not to be in want.

Im also happy I am going to uni. I need my degree so I can do the work I gotta do. I appreciate my friend ny, who has become like a sister and got me this job ive been at for the past year. The money has totally helped. Im grateful. Im also in total appreciation for my baby cousin (Jacintha) and my Godson (Manie). They bring me so much joy and im so in love with them as individuals and who God is moulding them to be. I tell there moms that there kids r now above them so dont be offended when I come to c the child n not bother with u. Lol. But yes there is a lot in this world to appreciate and im grateful for all God has bestowed on me

Count ur blessings, not the problems. For every blessing there is happiness (u may not see it). Ur blessings may not b given right away but theyre stored up in heaven-it lasts longer (eternity) up there! Once again I hope this isnt too long. Its 2am and im transferring files from my pc to laptop.

So love, friend & family! Xx